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Alright so I have this new kitten, which explains the previous sentence. The little monster decided to jump from my SHOULDER to the keyboard. Not only will she climb up my leg all the way to my shoulder just to, I assume see what I see and be near me, she now likes to see what I'm doing and watch/play with my fingers because they're moving so fast against the keyboard. The ad in the newspaper said they were 10 weeks old which is pretty suspect because this little shit is tiny. Like my hand is a few inches less the size of her tiny. So I take her anyway and she is COVERED IN FLEAS. NOT A FEW, NOT A BUNCH, F!@#$IN' COVERED. Like I put her in my sink to wash her off (Which she did not like at all by the way...) and she had like dozens of black ovals all over her. I think the pet shampoo worked a bit but I'm still getting the fuckers with my fingers/tweezers. And she's clingy as a fly on shit. And fucking determined too on that note too. She was sleeping so I figured I'd go upstairs and get something to eat and check my laundry. so I turn around from eating something and I see her come up the damn stairs, look at me, and meow pathetically. These stairs are almost bigger than her and she climbed about...15 of 'em? Looked at her, picked her up, put her on my shoulder and told her she earned that shoulder perch. And she's trying to eat my popcorn now, which is funny because she won't eat anything else besides milk BUT if I'm eating it and love it she has to eat it too, no matter how ad it would be for her.

I feel bad as shit come Monday because I have to go to work and loves the crap outta me. Cries if I leave just a few steps away, she's in a new place, she's probably scared, and probably hungry. She won't eat the kitten food I got her because I'm damn sure she ain't old enough for that yet and the only thing she took was some warm milk watered down a tad. And I'm going to have to go to Wal-mart later because cow milk is bad for for them so I have to get this kitten milk and I'll have to get a flea comb too. Son of a bitch.

Am I aggravated? A little. Worried? Yeah. Get rid of her? Kiss my ass. Does she follow me everywhere and pester me? Shit yes. But looking down at her sleeping in my lap being all kittenish and cute as Hell, there's no way I'm tossin' her somewhere's else. I love her, even if I haven't thought up a name for her yet.

Random ass entry. To be honest I had a bunch more shit planned about why I feel this way and give examples and shit but I forgot and did something else or just forgot.
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What the fuck was I talking about again?
...Oh yeah, how I feel about 40% of the time or when someone interrupts my alone/happy time (And no, that does not mean me choking the chicken...that's 30% of that 40%. xD)

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I have dreams. And unfortunately I can never remember all of it and 95% of the ones I do have are pretty badass. BUT I CAN NEVER FUCKING REMEMBER ALL OF IT! D:<

I watched the anime (The first 5 episodes though, I'm working on it.) Gungrave and I loved the fucking thing. Grave being pretty much silent no matter what was pretty funny and made me laugh on some parts. Apparently I loved it so much that I think I dreamed about me and him hanging out. Like he was a sidekick or a buddy or something. I think we did job with supernatural shit or something. And here's somethin' even weirder. Apparently our next job was to hunt these vampires in a high school...and I'm pretty goddamn sure everything was based on the movie Twilight.

No, I'm not gay. I didn't watch that shit. I heard what it was pretty much about by just guessing actually, haha. So we went to the school to hunt him/them? down and I guess about everyone in the school knew about the vampires and who they were. They would just eat whoever they got a hold of. Like for example me and...Grave I guess (xD) were walking to some seats in the classroom when some nerdy kid or something who was just about to walk in the classroom yelped and got dragged back and I'm pretty damn sure the vampires got him. And girl in front of me mumbled "Looks like another one." or some shit like that. SO we excused ourselves and went to go hunt the damn thing. Apparently we (Or rather Grave) hid a...rifle or some shit in a locker. It looked like a rifle. I kept on thinking high powered plasma rifle or something when I woke up.

So the vampire finds us and thinks he's tough shit and decides to do the "now you see me now you don't" disappearing act shit.

And then I woke up.

Because my grandpa needs something.

MOTHERFU!#@@($*&@$*%#$(#()URT(U)G#)(* R R(UJ#F( FFINC@(_H#R(_U @WPH)!!!!!!!!

I ALWAYS get woken up by somebody when I'm having my most bitchin' dreams. ALWAYS. It doesn't matter who. And you know when you want to go back asleep and your tired so you figure you can do it but for some reason you just can't? Yeah, happened to me.

God fucking dammit.

Sorry about this...people/person/myself. I need to dump that shit here for some reason. Oh yeah, and the "rofl this my be relevant to your interests" thing is pissing me off. So don't click on the links.

Really couldn't think of a journal name so I just put how I feel. I pulled something on the right side of my back about 4-5 days ago and GODDAMN is it sore. Thank whatever deity for heating pads.

So I was helping my grandparents by shoveling their snow and I turned to toss it off the deck and I MOTHERFUCKING PULLED SOMETHING ON THE LEFT SIDE OF MY BACK. Jesus fucking Christ did it hurt. The other one just felt like something got shoved over or moved out of place but this one decided to shake things up and it felt like someone was trying to twist the left side of my back to it's whims. Dear god it was fucking painful.

Again, thanks whatever the fucks out there for heating pads.

So I've seen this thing on DA for a little bit and didn't know what the Hell it was the first few times (Because sometimes I decide to skip sentences/paragraphs xD). So when one the I watch had the link in...her(? xD) journal I decided to try it out.

Goddamn.

This thing if scary dudes. I feel like someone's being staring at me and making some kind of commentary or something. xD
I'll put it up, it's seriously weird. I'll also put up the link just incase anyone wants it. I honestly don't know why I do though, no one goes on here. xD
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Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behavior.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognize the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt to give your all - heart and soul - to all those that show you a little affection; but take care - it would appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourself wide open for punishment.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?
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